Chapter 16 - Truth

 

I have been hearing about finding the Truth for a long time.

But what Truth are we talking about?

Is one answer or Truth sufficient to get all the answers simultaneously?

It was a question that kept coming up repeatedly.

Will one find the ultimate Truth in god?

Will it lead to god?

All sorts of questions come to mind when you are on a spiritual journey. It was the most difficult part to understand because so many paths are laid before us, all claiming to lead to the ultimate Truth. most of these paths are in the form of religion.

Being a modern man with scientific knowledge makes it difficult to take things as they are told. The habit of questioning everything until your heart confirms that this is the right answer makes you a rebel. Much pain from life also makes you question the paths already laid. Every failure to reach the destination seems to take you closer to the right path.

Then came the line from Jiddu Krishnamurti "Truth is a pathless land" If you try to take any known path toward it, you will get lost and confused. Only the way shown by the heart can take you to the ultimate Truth of life. I'm also influenced by the speakers and some of the films and documentaries. but the closest I came to an understanding the Truth was that it is so painful and hopeless that we don’t want to see it directly in the Eyes.

All the things in the world have one way of looking at them. Everything is judged differently by every other person. Still, there is just one thing that cannot be interpreted in any other way. I have been a doctor for years and have seen patients dying so frequently and closely that it has become routine. Seeing the death of near and dear ones has also opened many gateways in my mind. Maybe it’s just me being sensitive toward everything and observing everything so closely. I used to fear ghosts in childhood, but after seeing many deaths, I understand their nature and process.

Being doctors, we see how people take their last breath. Sometimes in our arms. We see how pupils dilate, how the body becomes cold, how it tightens in a few hours and the body’s decomposition. It seems entertaining for humans to make fun of it by thinking about ghosts and not looking at the misery and the beautiful process that takes place simultaneously. We see new babies being born into the world, taking their first breath through crying. We see how fragile life is. I think these things influenced me to think in this direction.

The Fountain (movie) plunged me into deep thinking about death and how it is inevitable.

A movie about the Dalai lama showed how his father dies, and the body is cut into pieces and fed to vultures. The moment I saw that scene shook me and made me think about my parent’s death in the future, and immense pain ran throughout my body, imagining what would happen. The next moment was serene and painful, and I understood the reality.

The Truth just came to me like a pearl found inside a shell buried in the immense ocean of pain.

"The truth is Death."

It cannot be denied. It cannot be seen in any other way. Man has built many things to evade thinking about it.

But the ultimate Truth, which cannot be changed, is that you will die someday and also see the death of your loved ones. All hope is lost after realizing it, but it is a door that, when opened, awakens you. It Makes you realize what you are doing in your day-to-day life. You have only one life which you are wasting by living to please others.

Every day which is lived by not doing what you love is wasted. Every time you think about your death, all the nonsense of grandiosity, Ego, Money, Position, Power, etc., will vanish, and you will see the naked Truth of where you stand.

You will realize how lonely you are if you don’t love others; you will realize that the money you are accumulating and not using to help yourself or others is wasted. You will think about the useless things you said to somebody. All you possess will be taken away from you. To cure all this, man has created the idea of reincarnation and the afterlife. They ask you to blindly believe in these ideas because they have no concrete evidence. You fear dying and going to hell.

You want to go to heaven if you die someday. But what if these things do not exist?

What if the life given to you is wasted in the process of preparing for the afterlife?

Do you imagine at what scale this fear is being sold? I rescued myself from all this by accepting this life as the end of everything and living as if there was no tomorrow. I would not say that I don’t care about the future anymore, but it has decreased to the extent that it is bearable now.

What is the point of living if this is the Truth?

I found life very beautiful when I started living for myself for the first time. Not caring about what others will think about me if I marry someone society doesn’t allow. If I changed my career and did what I love, my work is not working anymore, and I would feel something for it.

Suppose you live in this way by breaking all the boundaries. In that case, you will realize that life is very livable, and you can say it is a gift to those who cherish it. Doing what you love is always better than ending your life. The things that make us feel to end our lives are unnecessary things, people who don’t see through our pain. It is better to leave them instead of leaving yourself.